So I'm sitting in bed watching the time fly by when I started thinking about something that made me feel totally un-normal. Which probably isn't a news flash for most of you. I was thinking about how every time I write a good song or poem or chapter in a book I always second guess myself. And it makes me sad to think I gave my best to writing one thing and then I redo it just because it doesn't look good for me or I get nerves and think no one's gonna like it.
Well it's kinda like life. I put myself out there hoping people would expect me for me but only to find I have to change who I am to let them like me. I mean. When I'm around my sport people all I do is talk about my other sports. When I'm around my writing club I can't stop talking about my horrible poems and books. When I'm with my family I act like I'm apart of their rules. The only time I'm ever myself is when I sit down and start writing, like right now I'm clam and focused. I don't have to hind the fact that I'm on love with pandas or I love Owl City or how much I would die if I meet Kurt from Glee. Or how I'm super scared of talking to people on a stage. Or how I push myself to be "normal" so that I don't look stupid in front of my friends.
And truth is no one is normal and thank whoever for making that. I love no one is normal. We are all crazy insane idiots in our own way:D
Well I can't sleep so I'll be making fun if dog pics.
Have a great day!
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